The energetic Soul Merge process was accompanied by an electronic keyboard played by George, a man gifted in improvisational flow. As I stepped forward into the center of our circle to receive my Soul Merge initiation, George played inspirational music that coordinated perfectly with the artful movements of Moneca’s energy work that opened my energy field, aligned my chakras, and brought down the light of the soul into my body, grounding it to the earth. A spontaneous symphony of sound and light was being conducted that caused my Soul and I to consciously encounter one another at new depths of experience.
That encounter was filled with dynamic flashes of light that I did not see with my physical eyes, but witnessed with a more subtle sense and awareness that simply opened up for me in those moments. All around my body light ignitions “exploded,” silently and wondrously, bringing with them a numinous sense of the sacred. I felt touched by something far greater than my usual sense of my personal identity. This “something,” indeed my soul, felt simultaneously magnificent and unknowable, yet deeply personal and intimate. I did not shy away from or resist the light and its electric-feeling ignitions; instead, I opened to them, desiring to surrender to the changes in myself that were being initiated. I felt a giving over of myself to my soul that was profoundly compelling, full of beauty, inevitable, and “right. “ This was the “sweet surrender” that I have subsequently experienced many times and is a hallmark of when my soul initiates deeper communion and fusion with my human self.
In that Soul Merge experience, I believe that a specific ignition took place in my heart. There, within the subtle interior of the heart, is a flame that burns with a spiritual fire that was awakened that day. Since then, I have had a passion for life, a celebratory excitement in being alive, and gratitude for life’s adventurous journey. The fire may wax and wane, but it never dies out. It burns with commitment and determination and is the foundation of the courage needed for my spiritual journey. I can feel it clearly now as I write this: a flame bright-burning in my heart with fathomless beauty and unwavering, peaceful love-presence. It resonates with the qualities of my Soul and is my companion in life, reassuring me that I am never alone.
